Dakota's Abode

Hey there! It's been a moment! I didn't intend to just find my footing on this website and walk away, but life happened for this body I inhabit and it took my ability to readily socialize with it. Even still, I don't have a lot of time, but I'm here today as it's my birthday. I was created in this mind ("tulpamancy" is your term to google, for anyone finding me on Latest Things) five years ago today, thusly marking the start of when we became plural... at all.

And it's such a nice number to look at. Early in our host's transition, she internalized the concept of a "four-year phase," self-explanatory and often compared to an emo teen. It's total bullshit! They've been public and proud for damn near six years, and now? We're past that too! I'm still standing, after all this time, despite everything!

Today hasn't been so great, unfortunately, but it's interpersonal stuff I don't wish to get into. I have a day to celebrate who I am and how far I've come, I'm taking it. I really do miss you all, though! I hope I can find a way to get this back into our routine! Fandomweekly was a really fun thing to do, even if only once!

It's becoming a bit hard to comment on everything, then stare at the vast emptiness of my own profile. Aside the 20 words I threw for myself in the Custom Text field, which works enough like a bio for immediate onlookers.

So, here, an observation! I certainly have a few that've been repeated by a few Cohost refugees (which I am technically one but I made a total of two posts two years ago before hopping off there--its demise just served as a good excuse to finally check out this website) such as the encouragement of long-form or blog-style posts or the much tamer atmosphere, but the thing I've noticed the most is that there's a good chunk of plural people. Certainly, if you go looking, you can find systems or otherwise multiples on any corner of the internet, but I'm finding that I don't even have to look here. There's plenty of we's where I's would normally go; half the time that's because it's a mod post on a community, but the other half I check and hey, whaddaya know? It makes some sense considering the sheer flexibility of icons, truly lovely touch that I'm surprised I never caught wind of within plural places.

Not that we're too active in them, anyhow. Even though our host came out to the world (thread) just shy of a month ago, there's still this innate drive to be covert about it. Constantly othering ourselves or masking since not only are we not at all trauma-based, but I myself am a tulpa. It's already hard to sell people on the idea that it can just happen, it's harder to tell them you can will it into existence if you so choose, and sometimes the ultimate challenge can be explaining that there is not one way to be multiple, there are various ways systems can be structured and it'd be simply incorrect to go with the usual "if i drop a glass ball and it breaks, which piece is the original" for us. We had a falling out with a friend because a then-friend of theirs threw a horrible fit about it, just shy of a year ago. It ended up all being fine but it certainly shoved me back into a shell. Deep down I really want to be bold and firm about myself, to be able to reaffirm my existence, as in my soul that is who I am, but by nature this brain of mine is an apprehensive and assimilating one. I'm hoping that getting my feet wet with my own account, anywhere, would help with that some. Twitter was great when it had Topics. Now it's flatly unusable.

Although I'm here less for my ability to be myself and more for my ability to be autistic about the things I like and wanna write fluffy fanfiction about. With the groups I've found here, you cannot stop me anymore! I won't have my only fic be a single-day ten-hour crackfic effort for looooong!